[mood: sick. T_T]
[music: Cool- Gwen Stefani]
i wanna make this quick. since I can feel my voice turning to a monster's with cold and coughs. and yea, i wanna say sorry to those who've been asking to change thier URLS/links and I haven't. I've been busy these days. imagine, I haven't even spent an entire month long and you got projects and activities to be busy with.
*sigh* my life's passing like a gloom these days. I wake up every morning finding myself waiting for Friday. and waiting for the weekends to just pass by such days. Sometimes I find it nice, but mostly boring. sometimes I just walk the corridors. (wtf is happening to Blogger?! It's typing so slow! T_T) argh. anyway. I dunno whether to hold up a Hiatus or what but I guess you'll be hearing from me from time to time. x.x
"It's hard to believe how it felt before"
*sigh* well, I think i've been thinking much lately... and what more? my mind are being drained on thoughts of having my place back on SC. I *heart* my sneior friend Ally but being on the same state right now feels rather odd. I dunno. well, I do want my place back of course but it somehow makes me think if I want it just because I of its benefits or I want it because of the things I dreamed before high school. anybody of you know this feeling? insecurity, I think? or maybe fickle-mindedness. Sometimes, it really pays off to be an ordinary student. I think second year's like a break for me. Of course I enjoy being on position. But whether I'll be having it or not, let's leave it in prayer.
it's because of that one last thing I found. I'll be getting my position in that way, I think it's kinda unfair and biased. hey. a friend of mine told me Things happen, and we must always keep in mind that we still don't know what lies ahead.. So maybe, it's kinda similar to Kiara's graduation expectation. but I dunno. Will I still appreciate things I had before everything might happen? or the question, still, is, will it happen?
"And i'll be happy for you, if you'll be happy for me."
Far from where we go, I know where cool. yeah. Somehow I feel bad because Ally is trying to get me back. and yes, I do appreicate it so much. believe me. but there's still this part of me that feels awkward.
well, maybe it's just my cold. you never know.
It's because we feel such things other people don't, it's called Perspective
