Dear Maki,
I know I'm late, see? Three hours more and the event's finally over. and I have no friggin idea what time you'll be reading this. But anyway!
Happy fourteeth birthday! You're a young lady now, more mature, more ocnsiderate, and more pretty.... Maki, I know, I mean, we both know that there are times that I couldn't be what you want me to be. I'm sorry if I can't be the perfect bestie for you--and that there are times I'm just plain moody. In behalf of my split personality, I humbly apologize for my flaws and moodiness. I'm sorry if I can't make you smile as always, if I can't relate to some of your rants, or maybe for just being "manhid" from time to time. I'm sorry if there are times that you know... I'm just hard to understand, or just annoying. You are a great person--believe it. You are better in tons of things~ I don't think you just don't know it. But you will, and I won't go around telling you that... because I believe that the greatest pleasure of life is to know who you are. I know that you'll get somewhere someday. Yet I'm really and still thankful to Kami-sama that He has given me a friend like you. Without you, I would never think view the world as how I view is today. You helped me mature about feelings towards others without you knowing... oh, prolly. hah. Weird, I know.
We've been through a lot. You know the stuff we use to rant about? Not that I miss or I don't miss those days, but when I recall them, they just make me smile. I really really enjoyed that time with you and Hannah. Though I know I'm not that much ourspoken with what I really feel, or what I really think, I just wanna say it plainly this time. I enjoyed you. and I don't want you to forget that :) I'm sorry if I don't have a really nice gift. You know what type of person I am now... I'm not only forgetful.. i get the tendency to not really care... on the outside of course. Yet I'm very sensitive in the same way. I would keep on hoping and praying that God'll sustain and nurture our friendship, cause I know we could do it. :D
Have a blessed 14th year, nya! :D
-Truly yours,
NicA
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So sorry. I've been so stressed and unhappy these days. I've been keeping to myself lately... and I don't really know what to do now. wahhhh. so yeah. I prolly have to keep this journal updated over the weekend. but right. I simply have school to endure. >.>
