Honeslty, I don't know how to describe it.
Everything after the whole thing happend just went like a bliss of new beginning and new things flooded in. After the letter thing there came in another friend issue, after that friend drama. and everything life seems to throw at you, seems like uncatchable.
But we don't really need to catch everything, don't we? Maybe that's the reason why I didn't really felt like blogging everything that happend after that. I dunno why, but my heart just went. Just live life, you only got one of it. And right now, as I seem to recall what has happend to my last year, I can't help but smile, no idea why.
I just remebered. While I wrote those words, everything just spills. And when I read them today, I seem to relive everything. And I've never felt like I could reliv my second year. Since it's past and gone, and of course, will never be forgotten, I actually felt like I experieced high school.
Maybe it's just an act of maturity, a feeling of triumph over what you have done to yourself, knowing that every matter was settled and there's no hard feelings.
Maybe that's why we don't need to catch everything life throws at us.
Maybe it's because life doesn't throw, but rather presents problems in a throw-like way.
And somehow, I don't feel any regret. I've been thankful to the friends I made, I will really remember them no matter what, (well, okay, truth be told, I could forget them) But what matters now, is that I'm not afraid to tell "Th Cyberworld's been kind to me, the safest place I used to be."
and somehow, after all those maturity talk, as I reread the posts again, I can't help but to smile and agree to what it was saying. After everything, I still believe the childish old me is still somwhere deep inside me, just waiting for the moments when she is allowed to come to life, and to blab, to rant, to laugh, like an childish person would.
and I pray I would always feel like this, even though I know it won't
but I'm not saying goodbye to the blog world. I'll be checking in from time to time. And probably not update in the future. I have moved however. To somewhere more private. After all, after maturity comes a new set of problems to get over it, doesn't it? *wink wink*
For those who are still interested, just comment me, I'll prolly email or contact whatever way back. Tagboard is not too reliable now however.
